How is it that we are so different? And why is it that we always want to be like someone else? Why do some people have no difficulty with some things while others will struggle with it their whole lives?
There are people out there who simply glance at a text and they've memorized it and understood it. Me? It takes forever. I need to sit down and take in every word. I won't remember it and I won't understand it. I need to work twice as hard in everything I do. And even then i struggle. I have a tendency to know this about myself, but still it catches me off guard, and sometimes I will use this to give up.
How come yet again everyone is so far ahead of me? I've read everything I can see, listened to everything I've heard of and done everything I can afford to do-and yet I'm so far behind. Although...is this true? Have I? Have I really struggled or am I simply moaning? Things don't come easy. We all have to work hard in achieving what we want. But, is it just me or do some things come easier for others and more difficult for me? I don't like moaning and I don't want to make up excuses. Oh, I'm dyslexic-I can't do that so I'm not going to even try!
I don't understand...again...
If I do have difficulties in understanding and learning things then what CAN I do? Still waiting to find out I guess...
What angers me the most are these people for whom everything is so easy and then they don't do anything with it! They just have to read one thing once or do one thing once or listen to something once and they understand it. Politics, maths, writing, reading, languages-there is so much... But then they don't do anything with it!!!! They simply sit at home or have some dead end job! While I'm here working my ass off to understand the simplest things! Why can I not have some of their talents? I want to know and understand the things which they know and understand.
I just hope, although sometimes I'm not so sure, that maybe they struggle with things in which I'm good at. I don't know what though.
